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| Tuesday, July 31, 2007 |
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The pain I gave myself yesterday can't be compared to those words you had said.
You asked me to find my friends when I did all those hurting to myself.
You just asked me to take care when I told you blanket is the only comfort I could find.
I said I'll try not to relie on you but you didn't stop me to, but ask me to make my own decision.
I know you're stress over your stuff.
But all I asked for is little comfort from you.
It will just make my day.
I'm always telling myself I'm strong and firm,
but time just prove me wrong.
I shall find my way back to the Michelle I used to know.
From underneath the trees, we gaze upon the sky,
confusing stars for satellites
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| 3:17 PM |
| Monday, July 30, 2007 |
Nobody knows what lies behind this broken smile,
except for herself.
She choose not to share cause she didn't like others to worry.
She kept all the rumblings at the back of her mind,
and put on a smile all day to provide comfort for others.
Each day she's standing strong,
but time prove to her that she's not.
She's just too relie on this guy.
Hoping that he could be the one to be by her side,
to lend her a shoulder to lean on,
to give her comfort when she's down,
to give her a warmth hug and wipe away her tears.
and lastly to draw back the smile she used to have.
Just like how she wants to be there for the guy.
To give him the support that he wants,
to give him the comfort that he needs,
to wrap him a hug to ensure him that tomorrow will be a better day.
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| 3:26 PM |
| Sunday, July 29, 2007 |
It's 3 hours pass 12am.
Today marks my last day over at BJ.
1 year, 8 month, 5 days.
I tried holding on to my tears, but I failed.
Lousy me.
It's just swapping of shops,
why are you so emotional?
BJ left me with too much memories,
like what Victor said, I've basically stepped on every single titles.
And the songs I'm listening to were played everyday at work.
Most importantly is the bunch of sweethearts I can't bare to bid goodbye.
We came from different backgrounds,
And build ourselves up as a team.
And one by one we went on our seperate ways.
I witness so many goodbyes,
but this is a heartache one.
I'm gonna adapt to a new environment,
when I'v name BJ my 1st home,
ain't compare with my own home.
There so many things I want to say,
but I do not know where to start from,
neither do I know where to end.
Feeling so down in the middle of the night,
and the song 'Hear You Me' by Jimmy Eat World kept playing on my playlist.
Was so looking forward on friday after night class,
but everything turned our sour.
I offered help to a tourist who's asking for direction,
and I got said by you for being 'helpful.'
You exected me to comfort you when you gave me the moody look,
but I failed to do so,
That's where our quarrel started.
You promised to watch' The Simpson' when it's on screen,
but you said I didn't understand you for not liking to watch it.
When I don't even know
and the tickets were a waste.
You told me you're stress,
and I'm always trying hard to find words to make you feel better.
You didn't always tell me what goes wrong,
but I'm always struggling to understand you.
I gave my promise to you,
stating that I'll always be by your side.
to lend you a listening ears, a support.
Maybe you just want to be alone,
maybe you don't need me at all.
Sometimes I just feel that I'm such a lousy girlfriend.
I'm not good at expressing myself.
Cause I'm used to swallowing everything down my throat
or kept it at the back of my mind.
And till one day I can't withold it,
I'll just burst into tears.
It's time for me to hide under my blanket
so long,
goodnight.
I was never good at goodbye.
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| 6:00 PM |
| Thursday, July 26, 2007 |
Yesterday marks my 1 year 8 months at Bugis Juction Giordano.
While early in the morning I received a short message from Cady
stating that I'll be transfer over to Lucky Plaza with effect from next monday.
Gonna give Brandon support as they're short of part timer.
Unbearable feeling.
I'm so used to BJ,
I guess it's gonna take me a long time to adapt to LP.
A ranking 1st shop with unfamilar colleagues & customers
I'm gonna face on a long term to come.
I'll miss
Cady's random cold jokes,
Billy talking in philippino,
Shikin's laughter,
Eileen sharing with us abou her part-time job, 'geylang'
Normah's sweet smiles,
Nadiah's singing,
Shi Jia for her S for Sjia
Marcus lame-ness,
Victor chatting with me while altering pants
Syirin's sexy butt,
Hui Ying silly-ness,
Ryan's classic songs, his fav skater boy.
little toyomi
the little cold staff room,
the vomitted dices,
the fun & laughter with my beloved colleagues,
the monthly supper,
the very dusty cashier counter,
the fried fish soup with milk,
clearing the reservations,
trying hard to be ranking 3rd
and etc.
So long,
goodbye BJ.
My first & longest shop
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| 5:21 AM |
| Friday, July 20, 2007 |
It's not easy to build up a relationship.
But it's even harder to maintain it.
As it takes two hands to clap.
But two hands don't always meet.
There's always a common problem.
Guys don't understand girls,
and vice versa.
That is where the meaning
mans are from venus, woman are from mars comes from.
The important ingrediants in a relationship are
Trusts & Compromises.
But they don't always come in pair.
I made my pillow wet,
but you're not there to wipe away my tears.
You always make me feel I'm such a lousy girlfriend.
You just make me feel I don't understand you.
I'm trying very hard to,
but once again, I failed.
Will you lend me a helping hand?
Everyone have their own problems,
but I choosed to put mine behind my mind.
sigh-
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| 2:44 AM |
| Tuesday, July 17, 2007 |
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If only my hugs are like a packet of cigaretts. It can ease away your worries, even for a minute.
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| 2:41 PM |
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